Sweet Boy

ALEX-MAY-8I have a big backlog of photos, so I thought I would do a big share. These are photos from almost two months ago (!) that I have only just uploaded. I’m delighted to report that I’m all caught up (for now).

Doing some maintenance on my ever-growing collection of Alex photos made me realize how quickly he’s growing. I could also remember specific days, and how maybe… “Oh that was a good day” or “Oh, that was a tough day.” But what stands out to me most is that those tough days are in the past. We don’t have to live them again. There are still more ahead, but each day we become more experienced too. ALEX-MAY-15

I think we’re currently experiencing the dreaded 8 month sleep regression *and* a nap transition where he’s going from 3 naps to 2. While reading up on it, I was reminded of the 4 month sleep regression he had, which then lead to a month-long cold, which caused multiple loooong wake ups every night. That was a dark period. I felt like I didn’t want any more kids after dealing with that.

But like all things, it passed, and now Alex is nearly 8 months, and despite the occasional hiccup, he’s quite dreamy. He’s super fun and energetic. We’re taking swim and music classes this summer, going on tons of walks, and despite the unpredictability in sleeping, he does take longer naps, which means long breaks for mom. I think back to how harried and exhausted I was in the beginning and that time is so far away. I feel 1000% more in control of my day than I did then, and that alone does great things for my state of mind.ALEX-MAY-21ALEX-MAY-27ALEX-MAY-28I’ve also learned that it takes a long time (at least in my case) to be OK with being a stay at home mom. When Alex needed me for every single thing, that was incredibly draining and demoralizing. It was also tough having such a dependent little baby while the days were dark and cold. I think I’ll have my next baby in the spring.ALEX-MAY-33ALEX-JUNE-2ALEX-JUNE-10This boy is the sweetest little thing. Despite the struggles (which become farther apart as he gets older!), my heart EXPLODES every time he smiles at me. When Alan hands him off to me at night to feed him before bed, I hold his little body and smell his head and just think I’ll take like 10 more of these please.ALEX-JUNE-27ALEX-JUNE-38ALEX-JUNE-65I never knew I could enjoy summer SO MUCH until Alex came along, and I realized recently it’s because having a baby makes everything new. You pretty much have to keep busy all the time, and go places, and try new things. And even though he’ll never remember going to the north shore or music class or checking out the neighborhood brewpub on Father’s Day, we will cherish these early days with our sweet boy.ALEX-JUNE-71

Summer Preview

It’s been getting really summery in these parts the last few days. I haven’t had to wear pants in a while — it’s glorious.

Yesterday morning I had a rare burst of energy and really felt like I should go on a morning lake walk, except it would mean interrupting Alex’s nap schedule. But Alan encouraged me to do it anyway. And I’m glad I did. It was a summery kinda morning I felt was indicative of what the rest of summer could be like. A morning walk – not yet too hot, and it wasn’t rushed. We saw boats and goslings (!) and I took a detour to check out the playground and get in the swing. I’ve almost never made it around Lake Harriet without him having a meltdown (when it’s just me; when I’m walking and talking with another person, he’s calm). Before, in the winter, there wasn’t much I could do with that. But this time I found a little bench to set up camp and I changed him on the ground and nursed him from the bench. And he finally conked out. I have a feeling I’ll have a newfound appreciation for summer now that I have a kid. I’m excited to just take my time and go with the flow and watch Alex have fun. He’s at just the right age for all this stuff too. I thought having a tiny baby through the cold dark winter was kinda brutal but this is a nice payoff.

Week in review

0504-32This week I’ve really lacked in motivation – no blogs, no grocery shopping, no cooking… I’ve hardly done anything. Just feeling really pooped. And with current events as they are, I wanted start the weekend off with something pleasant and nice.

This is really more like, the last couple weeks in review. I think I’ve whined in the past about how tricky it is to upload and edit baby photos in a timely manner, but it’s still true. Especially because picking a time to do a photo dump is so arbitrary when there’s no big events to focus on. BUT I will say that I took a few special photos this week that will be cherished (see above – books at bedtime). 0504-9A lot of people ask how the cat is doing with Alex’s presence. Personally I believe that she loves him. She’s SCARED of him, because lately he’s just super active and moves around, and he pets her (more like grabs?), but she doesn’t shy away from coming near when he’s around. She just lays down a few feet away. I think she likes being close to him. My babies.0504-11🍑0504-7Alex is also a maniac in the bath! He loves it. I wish he was big enough to just swim around in the big tub because I feel like it would be so liberating for him. He splashes a lot and relishes the water being poured over his head. We’ll be doing swimming lessons this summer and I think that will be a good outlet for him.0504-60504-260504-29Gentle sunshine.0504-33I decided to give him this little foam sword I got literally a hundred years ago (ok — 13) at Lego Land in California… Probably one of only a handful of things I’ve hung onto from my youth. Not much of a pack rat. But what can I say, I love swords. And Alex is a master of this one. 0504-150504-16As I mentioned above, Alex is extremely active these days. We got him this baby walker about a month ago and he just kinda sat in it — or walked backwards. Then one day he just figured it out, and now he’s unstoppable and it’s both a blessing and a curse. I’ve had to move all the magnets up on the fridge; we had to move the planter to the porch; and he knocked over the cat’s water glass in my office. It’s great he has the option of independence in it, but it still takes a looooooot of supervising. 0504-35FINALLY — the big milestone from this week. Solids! The very first time was baby oatmeal, and it went reasonably well. He’s most interested in the spoon. He loves to grab things. I’m wondering how I’ll ever get him to eat anything at all. We think the oats did a number on his tum, as that night he had a difficult time getting to sleep, as well as his first nap the next morning, so we switched to puréed avocado, and he seems to like that a little better. Though, he hasn’t gotten too much of it in his mouth.0504-210504-180504-20

 

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Lately

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Things are ticking along in our household… Alan undertook the GREAT task of building raised beds so I could fulfill my goal of having a garden this year. I’ll dedicate a blog in the future to that, but it’s been pretty cool to get to know how that process works (because I had NO IDEA) and it’ll be a lot of work but it’ll be so rewarding.

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Alex remains a happy little boy. And I feel like a broken record while talking about his poor sleep habits. I’m constantly keeping myself in check, telling myself that our problems could be worse and we could have a baby who sleeps like 4 hours a day total and also is low on the height and weight chart and a bunch of other stuff, but like, STOP IT. Your problems are not invalid because they’re different than other peoples’ problems. I still need sleep just like everyone else, and 4-5 hours of sleep every night for 6 months is – not normal or healthy -. Unfortunately, this is just my reality for the foreseeable future, so I might as well cope as best as I can.

 

041317-39041317-40041317-41Now that Alex can sit up on his own and generally keep himself entertained for at least 20 minutes, I have more little moments during the day where I don’t feel as guilty for just zoning out on the couch, browsing my phone. Sometimes I turn on the TV and -GASP- sometimes I let him watch. Motherhood is exhausting, and on top of judgment from others (whether real or imagined), nothing competes with the judgment we give ourselves, and that sucks. Mothering a baby is one thing, but I think we also need to Mother ourselves.

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At the Zoo

ZOO041217-11Yesterday Alex and I went to the Minnesota Zoo to hang out. I hadn’t been myself in probably close to decades, and he’s only 5.5 months old, and it’s like $18 a ticket, plus parking, so it was a gamble. I don’t want to say people who try new things with babies are heroes, but there does take a certain amount of bravery. But you need to get out of the house and do stuff, otherwise you’ll go insane.

Luckily, everything worked out perfectly. The weather was cool and cloudy, but not cold or rainy. Alex was comfortable in a sweatshirt and I in a t-shirt (because you have to be ON YOUR GAME constantly with a baby and that makes you sweaty). The crowds were minimal, and Alex didn’t get upset once. He even seemed to get a kick out of it! Like, in the photo above, he’s literally just looking at a tank of water.ZOO041217-8ZOO041217-12ZOO041217-17I also wanted to go to the zoo because I thought it would be a good photography exercise. And in theory I was right, except I didn’t check my battery beforehand so I was running on close to empty the whole time.ZOO041217-1ZOO041217-4ZOO041217-6ZOO041217-19

By the way, I can’t recommend our stroller enough. It’s got super system of different seat configurations. It’s also got a massive basket underneath for storing anything and everything. I love it. It’s on the pricier side, but if you plan on having more than one kid (which we do), it’ll pay for itself.

ZOO041217-24ZOO041217-27My favorite part was “Russia’s Grizzly Coast” which kinda just felt like a nice nature walk. Plus, bears. ZOO041217-33I ended up applying my ticket price towards a year-long membership so a few more trips this spring while the crowds are low and the weather is still nice will be 👌🏻ZOO041217-30ZOO041217-29
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